Season 1 Episode 4 Walkabout

I can see I'm going to have to do this a bit differently if I want to blog about each episode before season 6 starts which sounds absurd since it's 8-9 months away but they way I've been doing it is way too time consuming.

Walkabout is a Locke centric episode and in this episode we learn that it was John's destiny to be on a Walkabout and in the process of trying to get there ended up on the island ultimately as the other's leader. In the light of the season 5 finale I find myself wondering if it was ever his destiny to be a leader on the island or if he has always been amendable to coercion by everyone he encounters and certainly by the monster.

In John's flashbacks we first see his eye open right after flight 815 crashes and he soon discovers that he can move his legs and even get up and walk.

In the next flashback we see John sitting at his desk where he works at a box company which we later find out that Hurley bought after he won the lottery. He is talking to a coworker while pretending he is Colonel Locke. His boss Randy who we found out is also Hurley's boss. We also see Randy in the season 4 premier filming Hurley as he crashes into the fruit running from the police after he sees dead Charlie in a convenient store. Anyway, we see and hear Locke using his adding machine when Randy leaves him. The adding machine sounds just like the monster.

Next we see Locke with the coworker he had been talking on the phone with in their break room playing a game while they eat their lunch. Randy asks him about the walkabout Locke plans on going on and Locke describes it as having a spiritual renewal. Randy tells him that he can't do any of that because as we found out, Locke is paraplegic because his Dad pushed him out a window and he fell 8 stories. Locke tells him about Norman Croucher and says it was his destiny to do what he did. Then we hear Locke's famous line for the first time, Don't tell me what I can't do!

Locke is at home talking to Helen who we later found out is the name of the woman he had fallen in love with but lost because he couldn't let go of his father. The Helen he is talking to on the phone is a lady he has to pay to talk to. It is almost painful to see him ask this lady he doesn't even know to go on the walkabout with him.

In the last flashback for this episode we see Locke at the travel agency arguing with the travel agent because he has told him that he can't go on the walkabout because he misrepresented himself by not telling about his disability. Again we we hear Locke yell, Don't tell me what I can't do! We also hear him say say that he is supposed to do this, we hear him say this time and time again through out the series. Does he say this because he has done all this before so he knows what he is "supposed" to do? Again we see Locke after the crash and he wiggles his toes, then sits up, and gets up. As soon as he gets up Jack yells for him to help. As the last flashback ends we see Locke look at his old wheelchair and smile because he realizes that he is where he is supposed to be.

On the island in real time Locke is listening to Vincent bark because there is a noise coming from the fuselage. They believe someone is in there so Jack, Sawyer and Kate investigate. They soon have to run because a boar runs out of the fuselage. Locke knows right away what it is and what kind of boar it is and that it is only a baby. Is he just very educated or is this another indication that he has been here before?

Jack decides that the bodies and the fuselage need to be burned. Sayid is very upset by this. Jack tells him that if the bodies are buried they won't stay buried. In season 5 we found out the others do not want bodies buried either, is it because if the bodies are buried the monster can take control of them?

Next we see Kate and Sayid discussing that there must be a power source somewhere for Danielle's message to still be playing but we won't actually see it until the end of season 3.

Soon we found out that all the food is gone and Hurley is mad at Sawyer for eating the last of the peanuts, but Locke comes to the rescue with his briefcase full of knives to hunt boar with.

Kate decides to go with Locke and Micheal to hunt for boar. Jack confronts Kate and wants to know why she wants to go on every trek and tells her that he thinks she has a problem staying in one place, he already knows her very well. However she tells him she isn't going to hunt because she is going to try to get a signal with the transceiver and that she is a vegetarian anyway.

During this episode we see that everyone thinks that Jack should be the leader and Claire asks him to lead a memorial service for the dead passengers but it's not his thing.

For the funny part of the episode we get to see Shannon con Hurley and Charlie to catch a fish for her.

Boone then comes to Jack because he is worried about Rose and thinks Jack should talk to her, Boone tells him that he is the one that saved her life and Jack can't disagree with that.

While on the boar hunt Micheal is injured when the boar runs into him and also knocks Locke down. Locke just lays there almost as if he expects to not be able to walk again. Finally Locke moves his feet and ends up calling Kate Helen. Was his mind possibly time traveling? Locke decides to go after the boar and Kate tells him not to and again he says don't tell me what I can't do!

Locke than has his first encounter with the monster but we don't get to see what he sees.

Kate and Micheal come back and they assume that Locke is dead because they heard the monster the same time Locke was looking at it.

Soon we see that Jack catches a glimpse of his dead father. Was this the monster also?

Jack sees Kate and Kate tells him that Locke is gone then he sees his Dad again and he runs after him into the jungle but he disappears. Nearly at the same time Locke comes through the bushes right where Jack's dad had been. Is this just a coincidence or had Locke been taken over by the monster even as early as the 4th episode?

Season 1 Episode 3 Tabula Rasa

The third episode of Lost is the start of their classic format of island events and flashbacks of one central character for the episode. Tabula Rasa is a Kate centric episode. I enjoy this episode but it's not one of my favorites but one of my favorite episodes is a Kate centric episode, I love Whatever the Case May Be. It's so hard to try to go back and ask yourself what you thought was going on before you actually knew what Kate did but I'm sure I didn't think she was capable of murder but I knew it had to be something pretty bad for a US Marshall to be following her across the world.
First let's discuss what the title of this episode means. In Latin Tabula Rasa means "blank slate" and it refers to the idea by philosopher John Locke that we are all born with a "blank slate", that they way we are, our personalities are very selves are developed by our experiences and environment around us.








What does this title mean for this episode? Essentially every person who survived the crash of Oceanic 815 were given a blank slate. Here they are with people they think they have never met who seem to know nothing about them. Unless the past comes back to haunt them like it did for Kate they can be whoever they want to be. The ironic thing about this episode and it being Kate centric is that she seems to be the only one who doesn't get this for herself. Everyone else can be who they want to be but because of the marshall and the mugshot she will always be known as the fugitve and will be forced to earn trust when people find out what she did.


The episode starts with the Marshall telling Jack that "she" is dangerous and directs him to find Kate's mug shot. I'm sure this was devastating to Jack to find out that the one person on the island he was starting to care about is someone he may need to be afraid of.

Next we see Sawyer and Kate, Charlie, Boone and Shannon coming from hearing the french chick over the radio. As you watch this scene you can hear a strange sound in the background that to me almost sounds like a very mild version of the time traveling sound we hear in the beginning of season 5. I know I'm probably way off base but you hear this sound a lot in season 1 but not in other seasons except when we hear it again in season 5. It also sounds like the sound cicadas make.

It's night and Sayid begins to explain why no one is looking for them. Sawyer I believe calls Kate Freckles for the first time this episode. They also make a group decision to tell the first big lie. Saywer doesn't want to tell the losties back at the beach what they have found, he wants to keep their hope alive.

Back at the beach Hurley asks Jack if the monster could be a dinosaur but Jack says no because they are extinct, then Hurley finds Kate's mug shot and he is even more scared than Jack.

Sayid and company are sleeping and Boone decides to try to take Sayid's gun. I'm actually not sure why he did this and what he wanted it for. He was caught as I'm sure Sayid always keeps one eye open and they decide to give the gun to the unknowing fugitive Kate.

Kate's flashbacks start and we see her sleeping in a barn and Ray wakes her up. He wants to know what she is doing there and says the nearest town is 15 kilometers away. Even in season 1 we saw the "numbers" all the time and they seem to be intertwined in all areas of the losties lives. She tells Ray that her name is Annie and that she is Canadian and that after she graduated from college she wanted to see the world. I think it's neat fact that is what Evangeline, "Kate", did in real life. She is Canadian and did see the world after graduating from college as a missionary, I think that is so cool.

Back to Kate's flashback Ray states that his wife died 8 months ago Wednesday and he has a hell of a mortgage.

Why was Kate in Australia? We see in the 6th episode of season 3 , I do, that her husband Kevin had plane tickets for them to take a vacation. Is this why she ran to Australia? How did she think she wouldn't be tracked there when her husband had bought those tickets and could take a guess where she was going?


Sayid comes back with the losties who went with him and doesn't completely lie as he needs their help to find any cell phones and laptops to find out where the french chicks transmission is coming from.

Kate and Jack already have a close relationship and Jack is the one person she confides in and tells the truth to. However Jack cannot fully trust that she is even telling the truth as he has just seen her mugshot. Kate then becomes a little too interested in the Marshall and asks how he is doing and if he has said anything.

Hurley is pretty freaked out by seeing Kate's mug shot and wants to know what she said to Jack and asks Jacks what she did. Jack states it's not any of his business. Then Hurley seems to be as good as Sawyer at giving nicknames and tells Jack that "johnny fever" is not doing well. Jack knows that he needs to search the plane for drugs but Hurley reminds him that the "bodies" are in there.

Jack is searching in the plane and hears a noise and it turns out to be Sawyer "looting". Jack and Sawyer have an interesting conversation. Jack and Sawyer are two very different individuals, almost opposites. Jack is doing everything he can to save the Marshall not because he thinks he can but because he can't let go but we see here how easy it is for Sawyer to let go of the "real" world. He states he is in the wild and that Jack isn't looking at the big picture.



Soon we get to see the first scene where we actually get to see some love and tenderness from Jin toward Sun and we can see that it catches her off guard as much as it surprises us.

Charlie and Claire start to talk and Charlie asks if Claire's husband was on the plane and she states she's not married and how modern that makes her.

We also get to see Kate introduce herself to Hurley and we know exactly why he is nervous to be near her but Kate has no idea he knows about her.

It is dark and raining and Kate catches some time alone with the Marshall as she is leaning over him we see her flashbacks continue.

We see Jars in the pantry with 2003 on them. She has been hiding her wages in a tin can because she has trust issues yet she has no idea that the nice elderly man she has come to love is about to deliver her to the Marshall for $23,000.00. Ray convinces Kate to stay for one more night and tells Kate that everyone deserves a fresh start.

When we come back to see Kate and the Marshall, the Marshall is strangling Kate. Why is he strangling Kate? Yes she is a fugitive but that is his job, what personal reason does he have to want to actually hurt her? Does he feel like if she had never ran to Australia this would have never happened to him? Jack walks in on them and seems more concerned with the well being of his patient then Kate who is being strangled. He already things the worst of her and wants to know what she did to deserve that.



Kate then asks Jack what he is going to do about the Marshall since it seems clear to everyone but Jack that the Marshall is not going to survive. Kate asks Jack if "it" will be quick and why can't he just put him out of his misery. Jack has already assumed that Kate has committed murder when he says "I am not a murderer".

We go back to Kate's flashback and Kate thinks Ray is helping her out and giving her ride but then she notices that he keeps looking behind them and she realizes that he is about to give her up to the Marshall. She wants to know why and he says "I have a hell of a mortgage".

Now we see Micheal and Walt and Micheal wants to know what Walt has been doing with Locke and and Walt tells him that Locke told him a secret that a miracle happened to him. Instead of Micheal being patient and waiting to hear what the actual miracle was he jumps to the conclusion that the miracle is the fact that they survived a plane crash. How would things have changed if it was known right away how Locke had been healed? Micheal tells Walt that he will look for his dog and Micheal doesn't believe him but then Micheal says he will look for him as soon as it starts raining and it immediately stops raining. Is this our first indication that Walt is special?

Even in this 3rd episode we see one of Jacks greatest faults, he can't let go, he wants to fix everything.

Next we see Kate and Sawyer together and Sawyer says he came by to thank her for taking the gun because everyone knows what needs to be done with the Marshall and says it would be damn near poetic that the one bullet left would be used to put a dying man out of his misery.

Jack is working on the Marshall again and the Marshall is speaking and wants Jack to listen. He says that Kate will do anything to get away and we can see through out the series that she will do anything and betray anyone not to be caught. Even her actions in the season 5 finale left me wondering if she was still more concerned about herself. Then the Marshall states to Jack, " she got to you too". What does this mean? Does it simply mean that there is something magnetic about Kate and she is able to get anyone to do what she wants? Is this further evidence that her and the Marshall had more than a fugitive and Marshall relationship?

Kate goes into to speak to the Marshall again and we get to find out what her favor was. She wanted Ray to get the $23,000.00 because he has a hell of a mortgage.

The Marshall tells her she really is one of a kind and Kate reminds him that she did get away. He then asks her if she is gonna "do it"?

Hurley comes up to Jack and tells Jack that Kate has the one gun and is in the tent with the Marshall and he again thinks the worst of her when he is frantic that she is going to kill him but is stopped when he sees Kate walk out of the tent, but then we are all surprised when we hear a gunshot. Sawyer shot him and missed! How was it that Sawyer was able to shoot a running polar bear but not a still dying man? In a later episode of season one Sawyer finds out that he is farsighted, still kind of silly though. In the end even Jack cannot watch him suffer anymore and we are left to assume that Jack smothers him.

Now we see Locke and he blows his homemade whistle 4 times and then Vincent comes running out of the jungle! Locke finds Micheal and lets him be the one to tell Walt that he found his dog.

Kate and Jack are on the beach and Kate tells Jack that she wants to tell him what she did. Jack says it doesn't matter and that three days ago we all died and they should all get a start over, a blank slate.

As this episode ends we get to see some heart felt moments as Hurley listens to his music, Jin and Sun, Claire and we even see Sayid give Sawyer an apple and of course we get to see a bitter sweet reunion between Walt and Vincent since we know what happens at the end of season one.

We also see Charlie change the word on his fingers from fate to late. Was this significant because not only did it signify that their rescue was late but that Charlies own death was being delayed over and over until he chose to give his life for his friends in the end of the third season?

The last moment of this episode is another odd moment with Locke as he looks over everything and we hear not so pleasant music.

The Pilot Part Two

Part two continues with Kate and Charlie coming back from their traumatic trek. Kate asks Charlie why he was in the bathroom and he tells her that he was getting sick and that this is his one tangible contribution to their trip and that he is a coward. I'm sure he feels like a coward in more than just one way as he still needs his heroine.

Next we have a Charlie flashback and we get to see the plane going down from his perspective. It has been noted that Cindy's phrasing telling people to buckle up because the light has been turned on is slightly different in Kate's, Jack's and Charlies flashbacks. Is this simply a nitpick, or an indication of multiple time lines?




Now we see Shannon sunbathing as everyone else is working to find and sort things that they need. We can see right away that Boone and Shannon have issues with each other and they aren't the kind of issues that a brother and sister should have. Claire picks up on this asks Shannon if they are boy and girlfriend. Shannon states that Boone is her brother.

Next we see another couple that has major issues. Jin and Sun. We can tell from these first two episodes that Jin is not your ideal husband and that he is very controlling and difficult to deal with.

Micheal tries to ask Jin and Sun if they have seen his Son but to our knowledge Jin and Sun do not speak English although we found out later that Jin is a such a controlling husband that Sun would go to great lengths to plan a get away and learn English in the process.

Micheal finds Walt in the jungle while he is searching for Vincent and yet again we see another couple of people that have major issues. We can see that Micheal is very disturbed to find handcuffs and is scared for his son's safety.

As Micheal and Walt walk back to the beach they come upon Sawyer and Sayid fighting. Sawyer has accused Sayid of being responsible for the crash and has stereotyped him based on his physical features. Kate is able to stop the fight all the while knowing she is the one the marshall was bringing back.

Soon another trek is planned to see if Sayid can get reception on the transceiver they brought back from the cockpit. Jack wants to go and is scared for Kate's safety. They both know what is in that jungle. However Kate states how does he know they are safer on the beach than in the jungle?

We see Jin and Sun again and right now the more we see of Jin the more we dislike him. Jin and Sun both go to all the trouble to prepare the fish yet he smacks Sun's hand when she wants a piece for herself.

Right before a group of losties leave for their second trek we see Sawyer yet again looking like the mysterious bad guy and we get the first look at the letter. In the season five finale we get to see when he started the letter and see Jacob hand him a pen when he runs out of ink. I wish I could see if the earlier letter looked the same but I don't think they showed us a close up of the letter till the season 5 finale.

We see the group heading up to higher ground to see if they can get reception. As you watch them leaving you can see the way the light "scatters" as we see it in the second episode of season 4 when Daniel mentions that light doesn't scatter right on the island. Was there time travel going on even in the first season?

I believe one of the most important scenes in the whole series happens in the Pilot where we see Locke playing backgammon. Walt comes up to him and asks him if it is like checkers. Locke goes on to tell him that it is the oldest game in the world, that it is over 5000 years old, older than Christ. He tells Walt that it consists of two sides, one light, one dark.


I believe in the end that this is what the show will come down too, two sides. Good vs. Evil.

Soon, we have another very strange thing that goes on on this island. Polar bears. I wonder what I first thought when I first saw a polar bear on a tropical island. It certainly wasn't the actual explanation and that is why I love Lost!

Kate wants to know how Sawyer got a gun to kill the polar bear and he says he got it off the Marshall. Sayid tells Sawyer that he is the prisoner. Sawyer, says, fine we can all play a part. This statement reminds me of a youtube video of a promo that wasn't played in the US but I think gives us a lot insight into the show. I love this video, here it is below.
















Kate then decides that she wants to take the gun apart and pretends she doesn't know how. We learn in a later episode that she's told this lie before in Whatever The Case May Be.

Sawyer says to Kate, " I know your type", and "I've been with girls like you". Kate then says, "not girls exactly like me". This statement has always struck and I think it may be another instance of showing the characters have been through something like this before.

We have another flashbacks and it is Kate's. Do Kate and the Marshall seem more intimate that what they should be?





We have Losties on higher ground and they finally have bars on the transceiver. They soon hear a female voice speaking in french. Everyone is so happy but it is short lived when they get Shannon to relunctantly interpret what the french chick is saying.

She says,

Please help me, please come get me.
I'm alone now, on the island alone.
Please someone come.
The others are dead.
It killed them, it killed them all.

Sayid soon figures out that is repeating over and over, on a loop.

Charlie then asks the most important question for season 1. "Where are we?"

After reading what I wrote a while back I wonder if something happens to Frank if Jack could fly the plane home, I had forgotten about him taking flying lessons!

The Pilot, Part One

Well, here is the beginning of the best show ever made in my opinion. I never get tired of watching the pilot and I feel like the more we know the more we can find and notice in the pilot but also the more we know the more questions too!

The show starts with us seeing Jacks eye and I know I am wondering if his eye is the same we see in very very short teaser we see for season 6. Here is the promo with the image of the eye.



Every time I see Jack's eye in the pilot I wonder if I can see a reflection of some sort but I look and look and can't figure out what I see.

The next thing we know we see Jack and he hears a noise and here comes Vincent. During the hiatus between season 3 and 4 there was a series of mobisodes to fill in some missing pieces. The last one shows us what happened right before Vincent comes upon Jack and here it is.



There are a lot questions surrounding why Jack is in the Jungle and not nearer to the crash. Was he placed there or disappear out of thin air from the plane before it crashed like he did from Ajira flight 316? Why did his glass bottle of vodka not break?

Jack gets up and heads right to the beach even though he didn't hear sounds of the chaos going on at the crash site until he gets much closer to it. It has also been noticed that his approach to beach was filmed from the right and left adding to the questions of two time lines. Is one approach what happens after the hydrogen bomb from season 5 is detonated if in fact it does detonate?

In a short amount of time we see most if not all of our major characters. We hear Shannon screaming, Jin looking for Sun, Claire yelling for help and Locke. Who or what healed Locke? Was it the Island, does simply being on the island heal you? I don't think so as if that were the case nothing bad physically would happen to anyone. In light of season 5 I believe it was Jacob.

Jack helps Claire and asks Hurley to watch her and keep track of how far apart her contractions are. As he does this he hands him his watch. In another missing pieces mobisode we learn more about that watch.



Then there is Kate and Jack asks her to sew him up. She doesn't think she can but she is more than willing to do it and try anyway. Do they seem more familiar than strangers?

We come upon Sawyer and we can see right away that he is bad boy and probably someone that is very hard to like. He has changed so much.

Kate is working on Jack and she doesn't understand how he is not afraid. Jack tells her the famous counting to five story. From his description of this event it seems like it was a very positive experience in his life, that it changed him for the better and taught him how to face his fears. We see a very different perception of this event in the season 5 finale. Jack's Dad is actually the one who advised him to do this and Jack sees it as a "time out" and is embarrassed.

Soon we see Charlie and he is introducing one of the biggest ideas of the show as he writes FATE on the tape on his hands.

We see Jack explaining to Kate things that only someone who knows about aviation would know, and he tells her that he took a couple flying lessons. Why did he take flying lessons?

We hear the monster and if we listen closely we can hear the sounds it makes and continues to make through out the series. Are any of the sounds more familiar after we have seen the Season 5 finale. I know this is pretty far fetched but I almost feel like some of the sounds sound like what goes on at the swan site as things are ripped apart and pulled into the hole.

Here we have the first flashback and it is Jack on the plane. He gets two extra bottle of vodka from flight attendant Cindy, he sees Charlie rush to the bathroom and he tries to comfort Rose about the turbulence and then all hell brakes loose.

The monster is heard again and Rose states that it sounds familiar to her and that she is from the Bronx. What could this mean? Through out the series we have seen the monster "scan" people and maybe he takes memories also and uses them as his sounds, just an idea.

Next we have our first indication that Locke is a little different as he stares at Kate and gives her an orange peel smile.

Jack, Kate and Charlie start out on a trek to find the front of the plane. As Kate and Charlie walk Kate wonders if and asks Charlie if they have met before. Have they? Or is as simple as Kate hearing his music before?

All of a sudden it is dark and raining which seems to happen a lot on the island. As people cover from the rain Locke seems right at home as he puts his arms out to feel the rain.

Jack and Kate find the pilot. Was the pilot just unconscious or was he possible dead as we have seen other characters. Charlie goes into the bathroom to find his heroine and the pilot finds the transceiver. Then the monster comes and if we look carefully we can see a dark shadow pass over the window. The pilot tries to climb out and the monster takes him. Why did he kill the pilot? Was it possibly because he was not the pilot who was supposed to fly the plane in the first place?

Jack, Kate and Charlie run as fast as they can. I loved the scene where Kate is hiding in the tree. So much realistic fear showed in her face and voice as she cried and counted to 5 and as Jack did she was able to overcome her fear.

Charlie comes upon Kate and she demands to know where Jack is. Charlie doesn't know but he states that they were both dead, that he was dead. Did he mean they were dead meat or that they were really dead and brought back?

What happened to Jack when Charlie and Kate didn't know where he was. Was he dead? Did Jacob save him?

Season 5 Finale Part Two The Incident

Part two starts with "Locke" and the others looking toward the statue and Richard says that is where Jacob lives. Again, did Jacob ever live in the cabin? Was it just abandoned after Horace died and the evil guy was imprisoned there by the ash?

Now, we start to have the confrontation between Jack and Sawyer and Sawyer says, " Doc, we gotta talk".

Finally Jack has a flashback in the finale and we see the famous counting to overcome your fears but we are surprised to see that at the time it was a very negative experience for Jack. He considers it a "timeout" and is embarrassed. He takes his frustrations out on the poor candy machine and not only do we see that he was trying to get an Apollo bar but when it gets stuck it's Jacob who is there to give him his due. We also see Jacob touch Jack as he hands him the candy bar and it weirds Jack out so much he doesn't even say thank you.





Jack gives Sawyer five minutes to plead his case with I'm sure no intention to change his mind no matter what Sawyer says. Sawyer goes onto talk about his parents and how they came to die and we see again that Sawyer has no concept of Destiny. What is done is done. Jack says it doesn't have to be that way and that Locke said it was their destiny to be here. Sawyer doesn't believe in destiny and asks Jack what he wants and Jack says he had Kate and he lost her. Sawyer seems to think that if it's that simple than he should just go and tell her. Sawyer reminds Jack that if he does this Kate will be a stranger and she will be in handcuffs and Jack says if it is meant to be, it's meant to be. I don't think he was talking about Kate being in handcuffs. I think he is so far on the side of believing in destiny that he now believes that if him and Kate are meant to be together they will be together even if they become strangers and never land on the island. He believes that if it is meant to be that maybe their love can transcend time and space.

Then the punching begins and boy can these people take beatings! It only takes Juliet to say James name once to get him to stop.

Next we have a Juliet flashback and her parents are explaining to her and Racheal that even when people love each other that doesn't mean they are meant to be together. Juliet wants to know what IF you are supposed to be together. I think you can take this two ways, one, this tells Juliet that just because her and James love each other that doesn't mean they are supposed to be together but I also think you can take it as what IF they are supposed to be together. How will they know that?

Something else I noticed about Juliet's flashback is that her home looked pretty modern for how old I think of her to be. I don't know if that means anything.




Next we see Sawyer demanding from Juliet why she has changed her mind and she tells him the same thing her parents told her but also she just doesn't want to lose him and if he never comes to the island then she never has to lose him.

Juliet also tells him that she saw him look at Kate. I've watched the finale 3 times and I can't seem to catch the "look". I must be blind but in any event it shook Juliet up and this was the reason she told Sawyer she was changing her mind.

I didn't really like the scene with Jack and Kate right before he heads down for the shoot out. "Does it hurt?", silly. We do get to see Kate explain why she came back for Aaron but the thing that I took from this scene was that Jack believes in free will and destiny. He tells Kate that she doesn't know that Claire would give Aaron up for adoption but no matter what she did it would be her choice.

Here we have Hurley's flashback and we get to see how he knew about Ajira flight 316. Jacob told him. Jacob tells Hurley that maybe he is blessed and he's definitely not crazy. Jacob emphasizes that it is Hurley's choice. Jacob reminds me of God in the way that I believe God knows everything, he knows every choice we will make before we make it but it's still our choice, he just knows what choice we are going to make.

What do I think is in the guitar case? I think it could simply be Charlies guitar or maybe something that will come in handy in the final war, just a guess.

We are by the dharma van again and Sayid is dying and he says nothing can save him. I think it is obvious he is not talking about his physical life but his very soul.

I was so mad at Kate for not going after Jack and saying anything when he headed off to do his business.

It's nighttime at the foot statue. The thing that sticks out to me here is that Richard tells Locke and Ben that only the leader and one person can request an audience with Jacob. If you are familiar with the Old Testament it was the same. Only the high priest could go into the inner sanctuary and when Christ died the curtain was torn in two and it made it possible for everyone to go into the "inner sanctuary".

I think things will certainly change when Jacob is "gone".


We're by the dharma van again and Sawyer is finally convinced that there is nothing left of the three last years of his happy life, " no more LaFleur" he tells Miles. Miles then asks them if they have wondered if what Jack is about to do is actually the incident. I think that is very possible. Would doing nothing actually change things? We also hear Sawyer call Juliet Blondy, it's really all over.

Then we have another big shoot out and Juliet decides that if they don't live together they will die alone. How ironic that she ends up dying alone if in fact she does die. Sawyer yells at Jack to do his business and before he does the pocket is hit. Does this nullify the effects of the bomb?

I loved the deep emotions that were going on as they were all waiting for Jack to drop the bomb, especially Juliet's, like I said I think I her acting made this finale. Of course the bomb doesn't go off and they aren't in LAX and all hell brakes loose.

It sounded like I was watching a football game as Phil was hit with the rebar!


Then the chains are wrapped around Juliet and she is being dragged down the hole. Was this all from the pocket being hit? Or is this the beginning of the smoke monster dragging people away. The noise the chains were making sounded very familiar. Kate trys to hold on but Juliet slips and Sawyer was there to catch her. This was the scene that had me crying as I'm sure many other people. It was heart wrenching and I really thought Sawyer would be able to save her but she fell down the chasm.





Ilana and her group come upon the others and ask for "Ricardos", of course this is Richard and she asks him what lies in the shadow of the statue and Richard answers instantly in latin, "those who will protect/save us all" Ilana closes her eyes, this is what she was waiting for.

She proceeds to show Richard what is in the box. I was shocked to see it was Locke but I wasn't devestated like some. Locke has never been my favorite character and I had thought that "Locke" had been acting strange but I hadn't made the connection until I saw his dead body.

Who is with Jacob and Ben if it isn't Locke? It's the evil guy and he has found his loophole.

Next we have the showdown between Ben and Jacob and again Jacob tells Ben that it is his choice even though he knows what choice he will make.

I'm sure Jacob's comment about his tapestry means something profound. Is he talking about the the process of good overcoming evil and when you create the players it takes a very long time, but that the point?

Ben goes on his poor me tangent and of course ends up stabbing Ben but before "Locke"
kicks him into the fire he says "they're coming". Who's coming? I think the most obvious answer to that question is the losties that were stuck in 1977 flashing back t0 2007. I just think it's got to be more interesting than that and if that is what is going to happen I know they will make if fabulous to watch. My other theory is that the hydrogen bomb goes off and things are reset and we see the losties back on flight 815 but I think they will still crash because they are destined to be there. I don't know how it would work but I think somehow they will have some memory of the things that have happened to them. Just a theory.


The next scene we see Jack waking up from the tool box hitting him in the head. These guys should have been dead a long time ago. Jack heard Kate yelling at Sawyer to move away from the hole and let go of Juliet, he is beyond a mess.

Next we see down the hole and see Juliet wake up. I love her acting, she was the best in this episode. She knows what she has to do and she picks up a rock and hits the bomb 8 times and then everything goes white.

I think this is the beginning of good overcoming evil.

Season 5 Season Finale Part 1 The Incident

I would have to say that I loved the incident probably even more than the other season finales. I really feel like Juliet made this episode, her acting was wonderful and it was her realistic emotions that made me cry during the episode.

This is my first blog about an episode so if you are reading this please realize that I have never tried this before and may seem scattered and nonsensical at times but bear with me. My layout will start with how I much enjoyed the episode and then I will go scene by scene.

Okay, here I go.

I think it was obvious right at first that this was Jacob, but who is this other man? Jacob is wearing white and his "enemy" is wearing black so, we see the continuation of white vs. black. I have heard a lot of people refer to this other man as "Esau". I don't think he is an Esau figure. Even though in the Bible Jacob betrayed his brother and took everything that meant something to him away he truly did love him and when they met up again Esau loved him too. I simply think that this other man is Evil incarnate or the devil and that Jacob is good and love and maybe God.

I think I will just call this other man the evil guy. What does the evil guy tell Jacob he is wrong about? I believe that Jacob believes that the people he brings are inherently good even if they have done bad things and the evil guy is sure that whoever comes cannot be truly good and save the island from evil.


Here we see Katie and Tommy and it doesn't seem hard at all for Kate to do something wrong even at a young age. She gets what she wants, and she wants a NKOTB lunchbox, lol. She gets caught by the clerk but here comes Jacob and I believe that he sees the good in her as God sees the good in us and he "chooses" her.

We also see that Jacob touches Kate as he touches all the people we see that he encounters in the real world. I also found it cute that even as a child she is wearing pretty much what she wears on the island, jeans, t-shirt, and a backpack.

Sawyer and Juliet and Kate are on the sub. Kate is trying to convince them that they need to get off the sub to stop Jack. Poor Sawyer, all he really wants is to be happy. Kate is worried about all the people on the island dying but is she really worried about being caught?


Jack is on a mission and is determined to follow Faraday's plan. The thing I don't understand is that energy cannot be destroyed, it can change but it cannot be destroyed. Even when someone dies there is a energy that cannot be destroyed.

Sayid is working feverishly to get the core out and make it so it will detonate as soon it hits the bottom but they only have 2 hours.

We go back to 2007 and Locke and Ben and Richard and the others are heading to find Jacob. Where are Cindy and the children and the people we see at the book club. Are they still at the temple somewhere?

Ben explains that there is a difference between being in charge and being the leader. In the Bible we had lots of leaders over the course of thousands of years just as I think it is on the island.

I think it's obvious that Locke isn't Locke as this point. Why would he want to get rid of the Ajira passengers. If he was truly Locke how would they be a threat to him? As the evil guy they are a huge threat, they know that he isn't who he says he is and they are followers of Jacob and I truly believe they are the "good" guys.

llana and company are in the boat with the box and discussing Lapidus. Ilana says even though he doesn't know the answer to the question that doesn't mean he's not important. I think this shows that these followers of Jacob also know who are good, but what exactly could he be a candidate for? A true follower of Jacob, someone who does his work, like a disciple?

Here we have the second flashback. Poor Jimmy is starting to write The Letter but runs out of ink. I'm interested to go back to season one and see if the letter looks the same at that spot. Jacob comes again and I believe he also chooses Sawyer because he knows his true potential, what kind of person he could be and the things he can overcome. Again, Jacob touches Sawyer as he hands him the pen. We also see how Sawyer feels about destiny, he doesn't talk destiny, he believes what is done and done and cannot and should not be changed.

We see Sayid and Jack back underneath the temple and Richard asks Jack if he knows Locke and Jack tells Richard not to give up on him. At this point more than ever Jack believes in Locke even though he is gone but maybe he believes if Richard doesn't give up on him things will be even better.

In this scene Ben tells "Locke" that dead Alex who was also the evil guy tells him to do whatever Locke tells him to do and "Locke" tells Ben that he is the one that is going to kill Jacob.

The third flashback is Sayid with his wife Nadia. Jacob asks Sayid for directions and Nadia walks into the middle of the street and is hit. That was so hard to watch. Here again we see that Jacob touches Sayid and chooses him. How is it that Jacob sees so much good in Sayid that he chooses him? He just knows and I believe he knows everything. Even in the Bible there were people who had done horrible things but God still chose them to be leaders and great men that ended up doing good things.

Richard helps Jack and Sayid get through to the other side but doesn't want Eloise or him to going any further. He says he is protecting their leader. Does he mean Eloise or the baby she is carrying. Are we to believe that it is Faraday that she is carrying or someone we don't know of yet?

Jack and Sayid decide to hide in plain site to get out of Dharmaville. Sayid puts on Horace's jumpsuit. Where was Horace in this episode? Was he working on the cabin possibly? I very much doubt that but it was something that crossed my mind when I remembered him in cabin fever with the blood running out of his nose. Either way I would really like to know where he was and what he was doing.

Unfortunately Ben's Dad recognizes Sayid and shoots him right in the gut, it's not looking good for our Sayid.

Jacks facial expressions when someone hurts a person he loves is priceless and we see this again when Sayid is shot and Jack goes commando.

Here comes Hurley with the van again saves them for now.

Sawyer, Juliet and Kate are heading back. Juliet knows that whatever she had hoped for with Sawyer is over as she sees the sub sink back into the water, so sad.

Oh Vincent! I love that dog and he looks just like my Bella but I guess most yellow labs look a like but if my dog had been a boy I would have named it Vincent. Anyway, it was so cute to catch a little nit pick as Sawyer gives Vincent a treat.

Rose and Bernard head out of the Jungle and aren't too terribly happy to see the three. Are we to take from their conversation that Jin knew they were in the jungle and didn't say anything?

Jack, Sayid and Hurley and Miles and Jin head to the Swan site. Sayid is bleeding bad and Jack tells Jin that he thinks he has found away to get him back to his wife. Was it just me or did Jin not look ecstatic about that idea? I think he must know that their time on the island together saved their marriage and that if they go back to pre 815 the love they have know will be lost.

Back in the Jungle with Rose and Bernard they explain that they are retired and make a good point that no matter what is happening in the jungle they would still be trying to find ways to fight with each other. Sawyer knows she is right. What would make them stop fighting, the more they fight the more they prove the evil guy right.

As the three amigo's leave Rose and Bernard, Bernard asks Juliet if she wants to stay for tea. You also see that Juliet is lightly holding her stomach, does Bernard know what's going to happen
to her?

Ilana has her group show Lapidus what is in the box and honestly I didn't make the connection but whatever it was it was to show Jacob what he was up against. Here Bram tells Lapidus that they are the good guys and I believe that.

They find the cabin and Bram notices right away that the ash is broken. Apparently Jacob hasn't been staying in the cabin because the evil guy has been staying there and when the ash was broken he got free reign. It reminds me how God has allowed satan to have so much freedom until he will be gone forever.

Here we have the fourth flashback and it is Ilana very injured and bandaged up so you can hardly see her face. I have no idea how she got in this condition but hopefully we will found out next season. Jacob comes and asks for her help. We don't actually see Jacob touch her but if he didn't I believe it's because she's already been chosen and there is no need to physically touch her.

Ilana is in the cabin and figures out that Jacob hasn't been using the cabin and finds his message that he is in the statue which seems to be his home so why was he ever staying in the cabin and was he ever staying there?

We have the 5th flashback and we see Jacob sitting on a bench with his back against the building that Locke falls from. Jacob knew that this would happen to Locke and made a b-line to resurrect him because he sure looked dead to me.

Now we see "Locke" and the others come upon the Losties old camp, "home sweet home". You can see for Sun that seeing the old camp and Aaron's cradle brings on a lot of emotions and I'm sure she is thinking of her little one as she sits by the cradle. And we finally see someone finding the ring, I can't believe it's been two seasons since Charlie left it in Aarons cradle.

"Locke" interrupts Ben's alone time and asks him if remembers where they first met. Ben finally admits that he has never met Jacob and is embarrassed that he has never actually seen him but lying is what he does.

"Locke" is still working on getting Ben so he can get him to kill Jacob and make it so it is his decision. I believe the evil guy's loop hole is to get someone to decide to kill Jacob of their own free will and not because they are told to. "Locke" reminds Ben of all the horrible things that have happened to him in the name of someone he has never even met. That conversation is something that we tell ourselves all the time when we think of believing in someone higher than ourselves that we can't "see". "Locke" has put some serious doubt in Ben's mind that Jacob never had his good in mind.

In the 6th flashback we see Jin and Sun's wedding and Jin tells Sun that they will never be separated because to be separated is to mean that the sky is separated from the earth. What an accurate way to describe how they are separated now. We also see that the wedding dress she is wearing is not the same as the one we've seen in their previous wedding flashback.

Jin and Sun are in their receiving line and a lady asks them when they are going to have kids and Sun says "maybe on their honeymoon" which is kind of how it happened for them. Then we see Jacob come and he touches them both and I believe he chooses them because he sees how deep their love can be and love like that is good and pure.

As we near the end of part one we see what the stops van. Sawyer, Juliet, and Kate.

If you have read this whole thing, that's an accomplishment because I'm sure it was hard to read, it was hard to write. I'm not a writer, the last writing course I took was 6 years ago. I'm just an avid, avid fan of the best show ever created and I hope I get better at this.

Welcome and why I'm blogging

Welcome to my It's too late, it must be fate Lost Blog! I say it's too late because obviously I'm starting a bit late for blogging about Lost. The 6th and final season starts early in 2010. The fifth season finale aired almost a week ago and now we have 8 to 9 months to see what happens next.

I am going to start blogging about the season finale of season 5 and then I will start with season one and hopefully blog about each episode by the season premier of season 6.

Lost is my all time favorite show and I'm afraid to say that I don't think there will ever be another show that I will love as much as this one, so I'm sure the last season will be a little bitter sweet for a lot of people. I have read rumour of Lost movies though so that would be super cool! I didn't start watching Lost till 2006 but I've been hooked ever since. My husband's 85 year old Grandma actually got me interested. She would come and stay with my in laws and every wednesday night she would want to watch this weird show called Lost but it peaked my interest. So, when I was off work from having a hysterectomy and needed something to do I decided to get the first season on dvd and I got caught up very quickly and I haven't missed an episode since.

I would love to hear your thoughts and theories and on the show and my blogs of each episode. I know very well that there is abundance of Lost blogs, sites, and recappers, and but I'm hoping mine will be a litte unique since when I start in on season one I will have the insight of all the other seasons to work with.